I O uuu

I Owe yoU :  Nice poem

neither does this mean that I have got you
nor does it mean, that I have lost you
don’t know why even in your absence,
seems like you are present everywhere around me

my day begins with your thoughts
and the dawns are made beautiful with you
with you… just with you
each moment, I breathe for you
each moment makes my life
with you… just for you

my eyes are lost in yours
my arms embrace you in them
nothing seems to be mine anymore
don’t know what happened
even my talks are full of you

my nights seem to be a gift from you
why has my everything turned yours
don’t know what happened
anywhere i might go
seems like i meet you
it’s about you… just about you

there seems silence amidst noise
a little bit of dizzyness prevails
it’s about you… just about you

half-a-promise, sometimes
and sometimes, more than a half
my heart wants to make with you
a promise of loyalty,

this bond can’t be left, even willingly
it can’t be broken, even if I try
the thread which draped us as one
the thread of commitment

I am indebted to you
for everything that I have achieved
is because of you… because of you


I find my ways by itself
I find my destinations, so easily now
it’s because of you… because of you…

Life @ Aapka Solution....

Finally, I got posted to silicon valley. Life @ Silicon Valley is really cool. Definitely, I will miss Delhi's cold winter, hot summer n my SOIL friends. Accommodating to new place takes sometime, time just flies off in my office because I am surrounded by smart, intelligent and warm people.

Under the helm of Anil Sachdev and Arunav Banerjee, we, all, SOIL students felt like a home in our B-school.  Surprisingly, I found a new home in Silicon Valley .i.e my office. Seniors and juniors are very friendly and welcoming. It shows the kind of our company's culture and imbibing in new joinee employees. My office n my people stands for companies vision and values. It's true!!!, AAPKA SOLUTION not only for customers, it also stands for employees. Employees at our company are well taken care of. Does money really matter??? Yes, but to an extent.... because what more can human need, when you get caring and sharing people.

Looking for accommodation and shifting is big headache esp. if you are one man army. Also I have some personal  settlements to make. I have requested to utilize the time to shift and complete my accommodating till my joining formalities are completed as my medical check up status yet to be intimated. However initial 2 days @ my company is really amazing and looking forward to contribute my best to the organization.

reminds me of youuurs

 

I was just watching this movie called "A Millionaire's First Love". Awesome movie. Its songs esp. INSA [Farewell] by dbsk brought dejavu feeling. It's my all time favorite song now. Whenever I listen to this song, it reminds me an angel whom I miss everyday. This song is dedicated to her....

Even that time...when the wind blows...
For me it is not enough...
I smile one more time...
I give my final greeting...
I love you...

Even though I am tired...
Even though love is paintful...
Even though those times...
are now just memories...
My final greeting...
I still have to give you...
I love you...

Fly away...
Fly away,love...
Fly away...
Fly away,love...
In my afterlife...
I will greet my love agaïn...

Movie: A Millionaire's First Love
Artist: Dbsk
Song: Insa(Farewell)

My Learning...

I’ve Learned…That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I’ve Learned…That when you’re in love, it shows.

I’ve Learned…That just one person saying to me, “You’ve made my day!” makes my day.

I’ve Learned…That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I’ve Learned…That being kind is more important than being right.

I’ve Learned…That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I’ve Learned…That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the strength to help him in some other way.

I’ve Learned…That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I’ve Learned…That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I’ve Learned…That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I’ve Learned…That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I’ve Learned…That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask for.

I’ve Learned…That money doesn’t buy class.

I’ve Learned…That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I’ve Learned…That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I’ve Learned…That the Lord didn’t do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I’ve Learned…That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I’ve Learned…That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I’ve Learned…That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I’ve Learned…That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I’ve Learned…That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I’ve Learned…That there’s nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I’ve Learned…That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I’ve Learned…That life is tough, but I’m tougher.

I’ve Learned…That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I’ve Learned…That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I’ve Learned…That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I’ve Learned…That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I’ve Learned…That I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I’ve Learned…That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you’re hooked for life.

I’ve Learned…That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it.

I’ve Learned…That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life-threatening situation.

I’ve Learned…That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.


I’ve Learned…That I wish I could have told my Dad that I love him, one more time, before he passed away.

Author : Andy Rooney

Keep the faith.....

May, 1st 2011. On a bright sunny Sunday Morning... I wake up as usual around 7 AM. Got hold of cup of tea and  searching for today's news paper outside the door. Although I am kinda getting bored with news paper reading the same stuffs again and again in different format. Life was never so boring on that Sunday. On page 2, TOI's TIMES LIFE column caught my attention. Title "KEEP THE FAITH". As I started reading the article... I was kept on reading till the end. I wanted to share this article to all those people who have missed it. Hope it will help you sooner or later.

"Sunshine or rainclouds, we can glide through every situation if we keep a steady head and maintain our equilibrium."

Don't laugh so loud; you will attract the bad luck. Grandma would warn whenever my siblings and I guffawed loudly. In her innocence she actually believed it, and , if a few minutes later she caught any of us crying after one of the many inevitable skirmishes that are a part of childhood. pat would come the smug remark. "Didn't I tell you whenever you laugh out loud, you will certainly be crying soon enough". if life were as innocent as that! laughter so easily aroused and tears so easily wiped away.

That might sound dramatic but most of us know that life does go through phases of good and bad, and then good again. It's series of ups and downs that doesn't allow us to get comfortable in the space we occupy. In a graph, life can be best plotted as sine wave, never as a steady straight line. And thankfully so, can you imagine what life would be like if it never changed? How would you learn to appreciate the laughter if there have been no tears? How do you celebrate a success if you haven't faced failures?

And more important, just as the highs boost one's confidence, lows help keep people grounded. An uninterrupted streak of success with no hurdles can very soon make a person arrogant, and uncaring in his confidence. It may seem some people's luck never changes and they lead a life that is all good or all bad. However that cannot possibly be so. They all have their good, better, best and bad worse , worst situations. The only difference is that they know how best to ride the wave. They do not let better times go to their head nor do they allow the worse times to pull them down. What is the secret that keeps these people steady in loss and gain? Is their life a steady straight line than zigzag curve? The best situations can't make them arrogant not do the worst turn them into depressed souls. True strength of character is in maintaining a steadiness through all kinds of situations.

Surprisingly, the steadiness comes not from inflexibility or an unyielding, non-resilient attitude but from a willingness to mold yourself according to the changing times. There is a time when you need to push ahead all guns firing and a time when you need to sit back and wait. A time to be bullish and another to be bearish. There is also a time when you can't do nothing but just go with the flow. A person who is intelligent enough to recognize the response a situation demands, the fortitude to act accordingly and the forbearance to wait for the time to change tide, is the one who is the winner.

The point is that life moves ahead inexorably; it is upto us to keep building on what it offers us at every stage. Those of us who failed to do so, are less successful one, while others take control of life and are the true CEO's of their own lives. For each of us knows that life throws at us both good times as well as bad, abd each follows the other.

The trick to keep the faith-- all you need to know is that each situation has its value and so long as you believe that, just look for it. Know that when you are at the bottom, Top awaits you. And when you are at the top, remember you will hit the bottom sometime. But that is no reason to go on a down slide yourself.

Other facets of life....

Today, i.e. 27th-Apr-2011, we had NGO work to do. From the last few weeks, I visited Girl's Shelter home. In the initial visit my experience was shocking and surprising. What I saw that Girl's Shelter home is almost cut off and untouched by it's Main Office. And it is hardly receiving equal benefits from the main branch. Because at Boy's shelter home, they have provided all the facilities and getting right kind of exposure compared to girl's shelter home. I was simply disheartened to see such inequality towards female gender.

I saw many girl's who lost/left their home due to inevitable circumstances. What hurts me most, is seeing 5-10 yrs girl in that shelter home. I was just asking myself, how life has took a cruel turn in their life. I felt there is strong pain they have gone through in their life at so early age. On one hand, I was thanking GOD that I brought up in such a family where I am indebted to my parents love. On other hand, I was sad to see such cruelty of life which I have experienced first time in my life. Especially it really hurts me most when I see cruelty against girl's. Because this society is always biased towards man. In this macho kind of society, I was kept on thinking, what will be future of these girls. Who have yet to gone through the different ages of their life.

What makes me most happy at that center is, when those sweet little innocent children call me as BROTHER with Innocent SMILE on their face. I was just moved to do my best to help them. 

Their smile reminds me the smile of my loved one. Whenever I see such innocent smile,

"When I am feeling down & Blue
And there is no one I can talk to...
I close my eyes and look into my heart,
And I see you there... Even though we are miles apart,
You are an Angel... Thanks for being there for me..."

I forget all those pains and start to think about WHAT I CAN DO? at this moment. My last 3 times visit was memorable one. I have decided to work next NGO working days at Girl's Shelter home. I will give my best and try my best by contributing my skills in whatever way I can help them.

Even in my Apartment where I am staying, I saw two girls of the same age around 11 yrs old in the park. One girl is poor [call her as "A"] and working as maid, another girl is daughter [who is wealthy call her as "B"] of owner under whom that poor girl is working. A girl is making sure that B girl enjoying in the park by playing with her, and doing all the stuffs which B girl says. When I look at A girl's eyes, I dunno what kind of feeling I felt. But I believed she accepted her life as it comes. At her age, where she needs to go for schooling, she is working as maid. At that age, where she need to play with their peers, she became toy of other people and doing what others are telling her to do. She faced only rejection and denial if she desired anything in her life. All she needs to do is work for your owner.

Many thoughts came into my mind. I saw many of my friends [girls] who are wealthy and leading a comfy life. But they are not happy with what they got. They are always desiring for more. They NEVER got any DENIAL or REJECTION in their life, when they demand something from their parents. They are so lucky to have this kind of rich life, but they are just wasting it without realizing how lucky and grateful to the god they are.....

Pondering over my Life....

Almost 10 months over, many things learned and unlearned, many things changed and unchanged, many things have happened, Sometimes I was an observer of it OR sometimes I was actor in it. Life is still mysterious. I came all the way with an hope to find answers for my soul searching. On one hand, I found answers to few things, on other hand I found a new quests. Seems like its an unending war, where once you find answer to few things, life will gives raise to new territory to explore. Many up and downs made me to cry and made me to think deeply about life and people. Life is process where we are all actors in it. Everyone comes and play their own part and leave us. In this process, some one get hurts and some one get gains. Again the concept of Karma comes into the picture. The kind of actions and deeds we do in that process. We need to endure and go through the same pain or happiness either in this life or next life. 

I tried my best to hold onto and protect many things in life. But in the end, I saw it just happened. I became an actor and observer in it. Everything has broken and teared apart. Lost of the loved ones. No matter how much I tried to hold on. In the end, I found myself let it go. Seems like there is no silver-lining in the cloud. The one whom I love with all my heart, I found them drifting away from me without saying good bye...

Culture changes, People changes from one region to another region. As I learned few important learning's in my professional life. If I apply that concept into personal life. We tend to associate our self with kind of person who we are. It's all about BRAND OF LIFE we are creating and leaving behind. Each-night, I go into the walk and sit on a bench alonely. As cold wind breezes through my ear and tells me that Life is like a wind. You always move from one place to another. There is no end to it. What all you can do is, whenever you find across someone whom you truly love. Leave them a warm feeling of yours so that for those moments, they will be happy by your presence. Then wind leaves me alone, tears rolled up in my eyes and says with an undying hope... it's hard to follow winds path, but let me try and try because this is part of life.... And we Human stands for the symbol of HOPE....

Empty Cloud...

Fortunately, I Came across this pic in Nithya shaanti's facebook profile. Here is his greatness which many of us unaware of. There are many such great leaders who do their work without taking credit and move on...

Master Xu Yun (or Hsu Yun - Empty Cloud)) was one of the greatest masters of China. He would travel with a spade and stool. Every time he became famous, he would change his name to remain anonymous. He lived to a hundred and twenty years and rebuilt hundreds of temples all over the country. He was also famous for his ability to enter samadhi for seven days non-stop.

The will to win...

If you want a thing bad enough
To go out and fight for it,
Work day and night for it,
Give up your time and your peace and
your sleep for it

If only desire of it
Makes you quite mad enough
Never to tire of it,
Makes you hold all other things tawdry
and cheap for it

If life seems all empty and useless without it
And all that you scheme and you dream is about it,

If gladly you'll sweat for it,
Fret for it, Plan for it,
Lose all your terror of God or man for it,

If you'll simply go after that thing that you want.
With all your capacity,
Strength and sagacity,
Faith, hope and confidence, stern pertinacity,

If neither cold poverty, famished and gaunt,
Nor sickness nor pain
Of body or brain
Can turn you away from the thing that you want,

If dogged and grim you besiege and beset it,
You'll get it!
  
Author : Berton Braley

To be or Not to be...

What Hamlet is musing on is the comparison between the pain of life, which he sees as inevitable (the sea of troubles - the slings and arrows - the heart-ache - the thousand natural shocks) and the fear of the uncertainty of death and of possible damnation of suicide.

Hamlet's dilemma is that although he is dissatisfied with life and lists its many torments, he is unsure what death may bring (the dread of something after death). He can't be sure what death has in store; it may be sleep but in perchance to dream he is speculating that it is perhaps an experience worse than life. Death is called the undiscover'd country from which no traveller returns. In saying that Hamlet is acknowledging that, not only does each living person discover death for themselves, as no one can return from it to describe it, but also that suicide os a one-way ticket. If you get the judgment call wrong, there's no way back.

The whole speech is tinged with the Christian prohibition of suicide, although it isn't mentioned explicitly. The dread of something after death would have been well understood by a Tudor audience to mean the fires of Hell.

The speech is a subtle and profound examining of what is more crudely expressed in the phrase out of the frying pan into the fire. - in essence 'life is bad, but death might be worse'.

Source: http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/385300.html

I was having this thoughts over the last few weeks. @ SOIL, I am facing this issue whether To Be or NOT To Be.... Since it is bit more personal and contain harsh words. You can have more insight @ http://lifeatsoil.wordpress.com

Love with no regrets....

Love this song, and the lyrics... :)

Hiding within my vision, always lingering beside, can guess love is not present
After happily playing & laughing, and be able to totally retreat; as long as you are happy it’s enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
What if you were to hear it and after wards leave
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Giving approval, give (my) blessing wholeheartedly, then let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

From a distance, in the background of “universal silence”, just observing is enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
Even though there was an instant, on impulse where I wanted to hold your hand
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Even with heaviness of heart, (it’s best) to let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

Let go, my memories (of you) cannot find an ending
Let go ! Wish you will have happiness & everything.
Maybe, love is very deep, but I have already seen it through
Can only possess when (you) let go.

                                                                      ---- Raymond Lam

Many times in my Life....

Many times in my life I have disappointed you,
and begun to stray.
But you have pointed me in the right direction,
and sent me on my way.

Many times in my life I've needed a helping hand,
and someone to pull me up.
It was you who gave that helping hand,
and always cheered me up.

Many times I've been sad and down,
and taken it out on you.
But you stood by me and comforted me,
In times that I was bad.

Many times I've needed support,
and to know someone was there.
It was you who held me up,
and showed me how to care.

Many times I've wanted to tell you this,
But never got a chance.
You have helped me out in life,
and got me where I am.

You were there for me through thick and thin,
You never gave up on me and you taught me how to care.
From the deepest of my heart I want to say I love you,
And to thank you for being there for me in times of good or bad.

I dedicated this beautiful poem to youuu. I am grateful for youuu being with me there.

What have I learnt so far...

Lessons Learnt in painful way...

I am not here to prove anything to anyone. I am here to see my loved ones to be happy and smiling always. I always believe in work quietly and disappear because Nothing else matter in the END of this life. We are all going to be  5 KG of Ashes. Hence Till my death, I pray to god. Let my life be helpful to my loved ones... even if it brings small difference in their life then I feel my life is worth lived and my death is worth to die for....

I came all the way from Suburban to Capital of India "Delhi". Almost 7 months passed SOIL, In this process, my life took many ups and downs. Most of them related to the relations with people. I am really grateful to her because she indeed taught me many things which she do not aware of that. I firmly believe that deep inside her heart there is so much goodness in her. Which she is yet to realize, I believe one fine day she will realize her true ability.

Thanks to all my friends, close ones, Loved ones, and City of Love "Delhi"

These are the following 10 lessons I learnt at SOIL. 

1. Do Not Interfere In Others’ Business Unless Asked:

Most of us create our own problems by interfering too often in others’ affairs. We do so because somehow we have convinced ourselves that our way is the best way, our logic is the perfect logic and those who do not conform to our thinking must be criticized and steered to the right direction, our direction. This thinking denies the existence of individuality and consequently the existence of God.. God has created each one of us in a unique way. No two human beings can think or act in exactly the same way. All men or women act the way they do because God within them prompts them that way. Mind your own business and you will keep your peace. Remember even if you really want to help your loved ones. But if your loved ones feel that you are interfering in their business then you must learn to move on and pray to god that let them overcome their problem by god's grace. God will definitely help them if we pray from our heart.

2. Forgive And Forget:

This is the most powerful aid to peace of mind. We often develop ill feelings inside our heart for the person who insults us or harms us. We nurture grievances. This in turn results in loss of sleep, development of stomach ulcers, and high blood pressure. This insult or injury was done once, but nourishing of grievance goes on forever by constantly remembering it. Get over this bad habit. Life is too short to waste in such trifles. Forgive,Forget, and march on. Love flourishes in giving and forgiving.

3. Do Not Crave For Recognition:

This world is full of selfish people. They seldom praise anybody without selfish motives. They may praise you today because you are in power, but no sooner than you are powerless, they will forget your achievement and will start finding faults in you. Why do you wish to kill yours if in striving for their recognition? Their recognition is not worth the aggravation. Do your duties ethically and sincerely.

4. Do Not Be Jealous:

We all have experienced how jealousy can disturb our peace of mind. You know that you work harder than your colleagues in the office, but sometimes they get promotions; you do not. You started a business several years ago, but you are not as successful as your neighbor whose business is only one year old. There are several examples like these in everyday life. Should you be jealous? No. Remember everybody’s life is shaped by his/her destiny, which has now become his/her reality. If you are destined to be rich, nothing in the world can stop you. If you are not so destined, no one can help you either. Nothing will be gained by blaming others for your misfortune. Jealousy will not get you anywhere; it will only take away your peace of mind.

5. Change Yourself According To The Environment:

If you try to change the environment single-handedly, the chances are you will fail. Instead, change yourself to suit your environment. As you do this, even the environment, which has been unfriendly to you, will mysteriously change and seem congenial and harmonious.

6. Endure What Cannot Be Cured:

This is the best way to turn a disadvantage into an advantage. Every day we face numerous inconveniences, ailments, irritations, and accidents that are beyond our control. If we cannot control them or change them, we must learn to put up with these things. We must learn to endure them cheerfully. Believe in yourself and you will gain in terms of patience, inner strength and will power.

7. Do Not Bite Off More Than You Can Chew:

This maxim needs to be remembered constantly. We often tend to take more responsibilities than we are capable of carrying out. This is done to satisfy our ego. Know your limitations. . Why take on additional loads that may create more worries? You cannot gain peace of mind by expanding your external activities. Reduce your material engagements and spend time in prayer, introspection and meditation. This will reduce those thoughts in your mind that make you restless. Uncluttered mind will produce greater peace of mind.

8. Meditate Regularly:

Meditation calms the mind and gets rid of disturbing thoughts. This is the highest state of peace of mind. Try and experience it yourself. If you meditate earnestly for half an hour everyday, your mind will tend to become peaceful during the remaining twenty-three and half-hours. Your mind will not be easily disturbed as it was before. You would benefit by gradually increasing the period of daily meditation. You may think that this will interfere with your daily work. On the contrary, this will increase your efficiency and you will be able to produce better results in less time.

9. Never Leave The Mind Vacant:

An empty mind is the devil’s workshop. All evil actions start in the vacant mind. Keep your mind occupied in something positive, something worthwhile. Actively follow a hobby. Do something that holds your interest. You must decide what you value more: money or peace of mind. Your hobby, like social work or religious work, may not always earn you more money, but you will have a sense of fulfillment and achievement. Even when you are resting physically, occupy yourself in healthy reading or mental chanting of God’s name.

10. Do Not Procrastinate And Never Regret:

Do not waste time in protracted wondering ” Should I or shouldn’t I?” Days, weeks, months, and years may be wasted in that futile mental debating. You can never plan enough because you can never anticipate all future happenings. Value your time and do the things that need to be done. It does not matter if you fail the first time. You can learn from your mistakes and succeed the next time. Sitting back and worrying will lead to nothing. Learn from your mistakes, but do not brood over the past. DO NOT REGRET. Whatever happened was destined to happen only that way. Why cry over split milk?

Special Thank youuu goes to youuu :) because you are my source of energy and motivation to do my best. Whatever I Learnt, I will become... Youuu are always there. :)